You grieve because you forget that what defines this world is betrayal.
It brings you only further into yourself, for you are scared of giving away too much again.
But to trust is not to not expect pain.
Because attaching to anything other than Him is pain in itself.
But trust is to give part of yourself away knowing that you will be fine if that part of you is misused, or lost.
As it always has been.
And that is okay.
That is normal.